I am currently reading two books at the same time.  Weird you might say.  Well at least my boyfriend thinks so.  How do I concentrate on more than one book?  It’s easy I say.  I keep one downstairs and one on my night stand.  And they each get the same amount of love.  It takes longer to finish but I don’t get confused.  Fearless by Max Lucado is kind of in both categories, personal and professional.  It’s kind of hard to explain but both personally and professionaly, I need to let  go of fear.  Fear of the unknown, fear of failing, fear of not being the best I could be, fear of comparing myself to other fabulous photographers, fear of living my dream, fear of losing someone I love, fear of raising my children right, fear of never getting married, fear of losing my house, my job, fear of fear.  I know this is not the kind of life to live.  I know I have issues.  It is odd how when I bought the book I knew nothing about it.  Nobody told me to read it.  It just stuck out on the stands.  On the cover of the book it said,  Imagine Your Life Without Fear.  Just as simple as that.  And I said. Wow. That would be awesome!!!  Then I opened it and read a couple of paragraphs on the 5th page:

Fear, it seems, has taken a hundred-year lease on the building next door and set up shop.  Oversize and rude, fear is unwilling to share the heart with happiness.  Happiness complies and leaves.  Do you ever see the two together?  Can one be happy and afraid at the same time?  Clear thinking and afraid?  Confident and afraid?  Merciful and afraid?  No.  Fear is the big bully in the high school hallway: brash, loud and unproductive.  For all the noise fear makes and room it takes, fear does little good.

Fear never wrote a symphony or poem, negotiated a peace treaty, or cured a disease.  Fear never pulled a family out of poverty or a country out of bigotry.  Fear never saved a marriage or a business.  Courage did that.  Faith did that.  People refused to consult or cower to their timidity’s did that.  But fear itself?  Fear herds us into a prison and slams the doors.  Wouldn’t it be great to walk out?

How powerful are these words?  This books blows my mind!!!!  I went to church a couple of weeks ago after I first bought the book and the service was about Fear.  Go figure.  It’s like God was talking to me.  It’s like he knew I needed the courage to let go and to grab on to hope, to faith.  Pasture Lee, from Radiant said if you let go, he will save you.  Just open up your heart and believe and he will be there walking next to you.  Have faith.  Have courage.  If you believe in Him you will no longer have fear.  What an amazing service!!!  From here on out Internet…. I am letting go of fear.  I don’t want him residing in my heart any longer.  He doesn’t belong there.  God does.  Will you believe and let go of fear????

I will keep you posted when I finish the book and give you another update.